Dear bloggers, I know i haven't updated my blogs for some times,
well, I'm being lazy lately or forgetful or I don't know. Just simply not into mood to write anything.
So my room mate reminded me that the last time i posted is like 2-3 weeks ago. Lmao~ So i finally decided to write again. So a lot had happened for this couple of weeks. Argument with Boston, My sister's promise, Some updates here and there.
I'll start with the first one: Argument with Boston
I know how we have been different, in term of what to expect in life, what our aims and backgrounds etc.
But from the day I say Yes till today, i have never change my mind on my decision on him.
How I promised to take the risk and give a last try.
What I really hope is, he will not give up on our relationship because I won't.
I am quite certain with my decision and I know what I want.
Since i have decided in the beginning, there is not a reason for me to give back because I have already gave my heart away.
So, our argument is on the different concept we had.
How he has made up his mind of not getting married any soon, or give birth or anything because he wanted to focus on his future and works.
I get his point and it wasn't me the one who wanted to plan for marriage that early in the first place, it is his idea that i'm trying to compromise with.
So when he says he has changed his mind and the change of plan, It doesn't really hurt me that much.
What really upset me is his assumption on how we should give each other a chance and if it is not going to work, someone going to tell and we are going to quit.
Plus how he has wanted me to stop calling each other hubby and wifey for this second onwards.
TBH, it is his ideas as well to make me get used to call him with the hubby thingy but now he is the one who wanted to call it a stop, so, can you understand how complicated my feelings were that time?
I cried for the whole night, can't even pretend to be okay in front of my friend because for a while, i lost my mind and not knowing what am i doing and what i supposed to do.
And for a record, I didn't sleep the whole night as well. I know how he is stressed with his work lately, I can understand that but that is not a way how we should deal with problems and because i cared, i requested a talk with him.
To make things clear and to fix things right. After a day, we managed to talk and collaborated. Then we got back together. From this lesson, it actually build an understanding between us both, like what to expect and what to avoid.
I have always been a woman who isn't greedy. I just hope for him to keep me at his side and i'm more than happy actually. But well, things can be more complicated that yes and no, isn't it?
Nevertheless, i still want to make it works between us because I know for whatever reason, i wanted to be at his side, and i know he will always be by my side.
Other people may not be able to understand our ways to communicate and get along with in a relationship, but i believe different people have different pattern to show that they care.
For now, i just wanted to grip tight to what i have and spend it like there is no tomorrow. Appreciate what we have and say out what we really feel for each other.
Second one: Promise from my sister
Well~ this is like a good news for me! My sister, Emily has decided to get me a camera~!
Not something like DSLR camera but something similar to that.
Some sort of beginner use camera for me. She says it is going to be my 21st birthday + graduation gift! <3 <3 <3
How i love to receive such a lovely gift!
Though 21st birthday has passed like 1 year more ago, but well who cares really? LOL!~
Let me show you the picture of the camera she has decided to buy for me. :D
It is a Panasonic Lumix DMC-FZ35~
I have no idea if it is good or not, maybe i'll show you guys with some pictures i took after i got the camera. <3
Can't wait! It is going to be the best gift ever~
Third one: Is a mixture of here and there
So my room mate's house maid has decided to go back to her hometown today, and because it is far in Philippines i asked her to help me to deliver something to one of my besties, recy in Philippines, this is going to be cool because i guess i have never buy her anything before and the only thing i get to send to her before is a postcard.
~.~ I know.
Kinda Lame.
Well, i can't help it, it is expensive to send stuff to other countries and i am poor jobless student who are still depending on study loan for government and fund from Bos. O.o
So, since she loves me so, i know she won't mind. <3
Can't wait to see if she likes it or not. LOL!
I haven't been able to talk to my kitty as well.
DX she has been busy lately and i know i can't disturb her either. -
sigh- and baybee of course, busy as well.
COOL~ No one is free around me except me?!
Ops
pardon me?
Me?
Free?
LMAO~
And the rest is about Bos being busy with work for 10 days from now, and won't have the time for me.
So after the 10 days, I will be stuck in a camp for 5 days with no telephone line.
GREAT.
AWESOME.
>.> SHUT UP.
Auw, i really missed him and i wanted to see him soon.
-sigh-
It will be two months already since i last see him in February.
-sigh-
How i missed it.
~.~
That's all for now, i am being lazy already. Shall update with bilingual again next post i hope.
TTYL <3
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