Dear bloggers,
i know i havent updated my blog for ages long, i am here today free because my boyfriend went to kl with his mum for an errand. Eventually, i am a free bird today, well, not exactly free but i get to do all the house chores before i get to sit down now and enjoy some biscuits while writing my blog.
Lately, life has been good enough that i am enjoying my rest of the break with my boyfriend because after the school reopen, this chance will be really rare. I get to make some mooncakes last week with his mum. I actually like cooking and of course, this will be great if someone can teach me how to cook propely. XD i fried a fish yesterday not knowing it is frozen for too long and it doesn't get enough time to defroze= partly cooked fish. And you know what? MY BOYFRIEND HAS BOUGHT HIS PARTNER HOME TO TASTE MY DISHES! COOL! >.> The man says my cooking is quite reasonable, my boyfriend in the other hand, keeps on ranting. Phew~ Nevertheless he confessed to me that he is just being humble to not praise his own girlfriend in front of his friends. BLEH! anyway, he is totally against what i like to eat: spaghetti, soup, etc. T.T we better end up in a restaurant next time then.
Sides, the other news is my boyfriend was telling me that we are going to engage after my graduation. O.O! i'm like:what?! well, it isn't that i am not ready to spend the rest of my life with him, but it sounds unbelievable that i am about to get engage to people. For real? I don't know.
I do like his idea for wanted to spend the rest of the life with me and of course, counted me into his life. phew~ sometimes, i just don't know what else i am expecting really.
Oh Oh, btw, my parents finally knew that i have a boyfriend and they are okay with it. Of course, some of my other relatives too. ~.~ i just dislike people trying to lurk things out from the people surrounding me but not directly to my face. Anyway, i'll handle it i know.
Adios people, i'll update you guys real soon. ^-^
Thursday, July 28, 2011
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Different Expectation
Dear Bloggers,
I know i haven't write a single word for ages long. Well, this is it, i'm now in Dunedin for three weeks break, bought a perfume and necklace different from what i wanted from my wishlist. O.o then, my future phone target has changed. XD yeah, what you expect is not what you got right? or maybe it is the natural extinct of female in my blood? :P
it is late here already in Dunedin, be back in two to three days. Can't wait to see my boyfriend. -sigh- missed him a lot and really glad he texted and called me though it is expensive to call me in New Zealand from Malaysia. :P i can barely wait for our 1 year anniversary, just notice it is less than 60 days from now. I still wondering what should i buy for him...hmmm... pounding the 'X' i saw from the Kmart... maybe it is a good present afterall? no idea. Should think later then.
gonna sleep for real, goodnight fella~
I know i haven't write a single word for ages long. Well, this is it, i'm now in Dunedin for three weeks break, bought a perfume and necklace different from what i wanted from my wishlist. O.o then, my future phone target has changed. XD yeah, what you expect is not what you got right? or maybe it is the natural extinct of female in my blood? :P
it is late here already in Dunedin, be back in two to three days. Can't wait to see my boyfriend. -sigh- missed him a lot and really glad he texted and called me though it is expensive to call me in New Zealand from Malaysia. :P i can barely wait for our 1 year anniversary, just notice it is less than 60 days from now. I still wondering what should i buy for him...hmmm... pounding the 'X' i saw from the Kmart... maybe it is a good present afterall? no idea. Should think later then.
gonna sleep for real, goodnight fella~
Saturday, June 25, 2011
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Wishlist Update! (想要得到东西)
Dear Bloggers! Adios~ it has been a while since we last met, well, it is time to update my blog once again. :D For the celebration of getting into the dean list last semester,i have decided to come out with a list of items or wishes i wanted to fulfill in the near future. :D
1.Purple DKNY Delicious Candy Apples Juicy Berry Donna Karan for women
2. HTC Wildfire S
3. Nokia E6 (white/black)
4. Snowflakes Necklace <3
5.an entrance to Harry Potter World, Florida!
6.a travelling ticket to Italy!
Will update this as soon as i remember what else i want <3
1.Purple DKNY Delicious Candy Apples Juicy Berry Donna Karan for women
2. HTC Wildfire S
3. Nokia E6 (white/black)
4. Snowflakes Necklace <3
5.an entrance to Harry Potter World, Florida!
6.a travelling ticket to Italy!
Will update this as soon as i remember what else i want <3
Sunday, May 22, 2011
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A Long Break (一个长的假期)
Hey Dear Bloggy,
I am having one long break for almost four months. Currently enjoying my holiday in Sibu at my boyfriend's hometown. Seems like i'm getting used with the life in here. Nevertheless, something huge have happened during the time despite of how much i love to stay in Sibu, i had to leave on the end of the month back to my hometown in Sandakan.
During the time, my sister and I have been into a fight and now a cold war. She doesn't like the fact that i went to Sibu, Sarawak without telling her. Then due to some conversation on facebook between my godsister and her, the condition has turned sour. I do not expect that to happen but well, sometimes, there is a time where we can't decide our choice and i still wanted to be with him.
Sometimes i wonder, for so much i give, if it is all worth it? After all, the different surroundings the different environment and culture, I know it is a huge thing to give for me but i still like him.
As for my sister, i really hope we get sorted out soon, i don't really want to be in a fight with her. I know she always want the best for me but in a meanwhile, i am too wanted to find the best of my life. As for my godsister, i hope she doesn't feel sorry for whatever that had happened on facebook. -sigh- I don't like argument and i never know how to sort out one, anyway, wish me luck for the remaining days in Sibu then.
I am having one long break for almost four months. Currently enjoying my holiday in Sibu at my boyfriend's hometown. Seems like i'm getting used with the life in here. Nevertheless, something huge have happened during the time despite of how much i love to stay in Sibu, i had to leave on the end of the month back to my hometown in Sandakan.
During the time, my sister and I have been into a fight and now a cold war. She doesn't like the fact that i went to Sibu, Sarawak without telling her. Then due to some conversation on facebook between my godsister and her, the condition has turned sour. I do not expect that to happen but well, sometimes, there is a time where we can't decide our choice and i still wanted to be with him.
Sometimes i wonder, for so much i give, if it is all worth it? After all, the different surroundings the different environment and culture, I know it is a huge thing to give for me but i still like him.
As for my sister, i really hope we get sorted out soon, i don't really want to be in a fight with her. I know she always want the best for me but in a meanwhile, i am too wanted to find the best of my life. As for my godsister, i hope she doesn't feel sorry for whatever that had happened on facebook. -sigh- I don't like argument and i never know how to sort out one, anyway, wish me luck for the remaining days in Sibu then.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
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Dear bloggers, I know i haven't updated my blogs for some times,
well, I'm being lazy lately or forgetful or I don't know. Just simply not into mood to write anything.
So my room mate reminded me that the last time i posted is like 2-3 weeks ago. Lmao~ So i finally decided to write again. So a lot had happened for this couple of weeks. Argument with Boston, My sister's promise, Some updates here and there.
I'll start with the first one: Argument with Boston
I know how we have been different, in term of what to expect in life, what our aims and backgrounds etc.
But from the day I say Yes till today, i have never change my mind on my decision on him.
How I promised to take the risk and give a last try.
What I really hope is, he will not give up on our relationship because I won't.
I am quite certain with my decision and I know what I want.
Since i have decided in the beginning, there is not a reason for me to give back because I have already gave my heart away.
So, our argument is on the different concept we had.
How he has made up his mind of not getting married any soon, or give birth or anything because he wanted to focus on his future and works.
I get his point and it wasn't me the one who wanted to plan for marriage that early in the first place, it is his idea that i'm trying to compromise with.
So when he says he has changed his mind and the change of plan, It doesn't really hurt me that much.
What really upset me is his assumption on how we should give each other a chance and if it is not going to work, someone going to tell and we are going to quit.
Plus how he has wanted me to stop calling each other hubby and wifey for this second onwards.
TBH, it is his ideas as well to make me get used to call him with the hubby thingy but now he is the one who wanted to call it a stop, so, can you understand how complicated my feelings were that time?
I cried for the whole night, can't even pretend to be okay in front of my friend because for a while, i lost my mind and not knowing what am i doing and what i supposed to do.
And for a record, I didn't sleep the whole night as well. I know how he is stressed with his work lately, I can understand that but that is not a way how we should deal with problems and because i cared, i requested a talk with him.
To make things clear and to fix things right. After a day, we managed to talk and collaborated. Then we got back together. From this lesson, it actually build an understanding between us both, like what to expect and what to avoid.
I have always been a woman who isn't greedy. I just hope for him to keep me at his side and i'm more than happy actually. But well, things can be more complicated that yes and no, isn't it?
Nevertheless, i still want to make it works between us because I know for whatever reason, i wanted to be at his side, and i know he will always be by my side.
Other people may not be able to understand our ways to communicate and get along with in a relationship, but i believe different people have different pattern to show that they care.
For now, i just wanted to grip tight to what i have and spend it like there is no tomorrow. Appreciate what we have and say out what we really feel for each other.
Second one: Promise from my sister
Well~ this is like a good news for me! My sister, Emily has decided to get me a camera~!
Not something like DSLR camera but something similar to that.
Some sort of beginner use camera for me. She says it is going to be my 21st birthday + graduation gift! <3 <3 <3
How i love to receive such a lovely gift!
Though 21st birthday has passed like 1 year more ago, but well who cares really? LOL!~
Let me show you the picture of the camera she has decided to buy for me. :D
It is a Panasonic Lumix DMC-FZ35~
I have no idea if it is good or not, maybe i'll show you guys with some pictures i took after i got the camera. <3
Can't wait! It is going to be the best gift ever~
Third one: Is a mixture of here and there
So my room mate's house maid has decided to go back to her hometown today, and because it is far in Philippines i asked her to help me to deliver something to one of my besties, recy in Philippines, this is going to be cool because i guess i have never buy her anything before and the only thing i get to send to her before is a postcard.
~.~ I know.
Kinda Lame.
Well, i can't help it, it is expensive to send stuff to other countries and i am poor jobless student who are still depending on study loan for government and fund from Bos. O.o
So, since she loves me so, i know she won't mind. <3
Can't wait to see if she likes it or not. LOL!
I haven't been able to talk to my kitty as well.
DX she has been busy lately and i know i can't disturb her either. -
sigh- and baybee of course, busy as well.
COOL~ No one is free around me except me?!
Ops
pardon me?
Me?
Free?
LMAO~
And the rest is about Bos being busy with work for 10 days from now, and won't have the time for me.
So after the 10 days, I will be stuck in a camp for 5 days with no telephone line.
GREAT.
AWESOME.
>.> SHUT UP.
Auw, i really missed him and i wanted to see him soon.
-sigh-
It will be two months already since i last see him in February.
-sigh-
How i missed it.
~.~
That's all for now, i am being lazy already. Shall update with bilingual again next post i hope.
TTYL <3
The Unexpected (不可思议的事)
Dear bloggers, I know i haven't updated my blogs for some times,
well, I'm being lazy lately or forgetful or I don't know. Just simply not into mood to write anything.
So my room mate reminded me that the last time i posted is like 2-3 weeks ago. Lmao~ So i finally decided to write again. So a lot had happened for this couple of weeks. Argument with Boston, My sister's promise, Some updates here and there.
I'll start with the first one: Argument with Boston
I know how we have been different, in term of what to expect in life, what our aims and backgrounds etc.
But from the day I say Yes till today, i have never change my mind on my decision on him.
How I promised to take the risk and give a last try.
What I really hope is, he will not give up on our relationship because I won't.
I am quite certain with my decision and I know what I want.
Since i have decided in the beginning, there is not a reason for me to give back because I have already gave my heart away.
So, our argument is on the different concept we had.
How he has made up his mind of not getting married any soon, or give birth or anything because he wanted to focus on his future and works.
I get his point and it wasn't me the one who wanted to plan for marriage that early in the first place, it is his idea that i'm trying to compromise with.
So when he says he has changed his mind and the change of plan, It doesn't really hurt me that much.
What really upset me is his assumption on how we should give each other a chance and if it is not going to work, someone going to tell and we are going to quit.
Plus how he has wanted me to stop calling each other hubby and wifey for this second onwards.
TBH, it is his ideas as well to make me get used to call him with the hubby thingy but now he is the one who wanted to call it a stop, so, can you understand how complicated my feelings were that time?
I cried for the whole night, can't even pretend to be okay in front of my friend because for a while, i lost my mind and not knowing what am i doing and what i supposed to do.
And for a record, I didn't sleep the whole night as well. I know how he is stressed with his work lately, I can understand that but that is not a way how we should deal with problems and because i cared, i requested a talk with him.
To make things clear and to fix things right. After a day, we managed to talk and collaborated. Then we got back together. From this lesson, it actually build an understanding between us both, like what to expect and what to avoid.
I have always been a woman who isn't greedy. I just hope for him to keep me at his side and i'm more than happy actually. But well, things can be more complicated that yes and no, isn't it?
Nevertheless, i still want to make it works between us because I know for whatever reason, i wanted to be at his side, and i know he will always be by my side.
Other people may not be able to understand our ways to communicate and get along with in a relationship, but i believe different people have different pattern to show that they care.
For now, i just wanted to grip tight to what i have and spend it like there is no tomorrow. Appreciate what we have and say out what we really feel for each other.
Second one: Promise from my sister
Well~ this is like a good news for me! My sister, Emily has decided to get me a camera~!
Not something like DSLR camera but something similar to that.
Some sort of beginner use camera for me. She says it is going to be my 21st birthday + graduation gift! <3 <3 <3
How i love to receive such a lovely gift!
Though 21st birthday has passed like 1 year more ago, but well who cares really? LOL!~
Let me show you the picture of the camera she has decided to buy for me. :D
It is a Panasonic Lumix DMC-FZ35~
I have no idea if it is good or not, maybe i'll show you guys with some pictures i took after i got the camera. <3
Can't wait! It is going to be the best gift ever~
Third one: Is a mixture of here and there
So my room mate's house maid has decided to go back to her hometown today, and because it is far in Philippines i asked her to help me to deliver something to one of my besties, recy in Philippines, this is going to be cool because i guess i have never buy her anything before and the only thing i get to send to her before is a postcard.
~.~ I know.
Kinda Lame.
Well, i can't help it, it is expensive to send stuff to other countries and i am poor jobless student who are still depending on study loan for government and fund from Bos. O.o
So, since she loves me so, i know she won't mind. <3
Can't wait to see if she likes it or not. LOL!
I haven't been able to talk to my kitty as well.
DX she has been busy lately and i know i can't disturb her either. -
sigh- and baybee of course, busy as well.
COOL~ No one is free around me except me?!
Ops
pardon me?
Me?
Free?
LMAO~
And the rest is about Bos being busy with work for 10 days from now, and won't have the time for me.
So after the 10 days, I will be stuck in a camp for 5 days with no telephone line.
GREAT.
AWESOME.
>.> SHUT UP.
Auw, i really missed him and i wanted to see him soon.
-sigh-
It will be two months already since i last see him in February.
-sigh-
How i missed it.
~.~
That's all for now, i am being lazy already. Shall update with bilingual again next post i hope.
TTYL <3
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
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半年过去了
不经不觉， 我们都在一起六个月
在这半年里，虽然我们聚少离多
可是，我还是觉得不一样
他，带了我去一个我不知道的世界
他，给了我不一样的感觉
比起初恋的感觉
多了一份真实，多了一份成熟
比起初恋的感觉
少了一点梦幻，少了一点紧张
却多了一份安定，多了一点平凡
这段感情带了我来到了真实的世界
虽然没有拉曼 没有激情 没有承诺
但是我还是想再次的赌一次
赌我对男人的信任，赌我放进100%的感情
远距离的爱情故事
真的很不简单
要对彼此信任，坚持的走下去
真的不简单
想见面时却被距离隔开了
就是为了一个约定和感觉而走下去
有时我会觉得没有安全感
有时我根本不能够确定他在想什么
不能看到表情，只能靠语气来断定真的很难
我很少会问起他的东西
一方面，我不想让他觉得我在调查他
再来，我觉得没必要
他想告诉你，自己会讲
不想讲的，逼他也没用
所以，还是当个不说话的女人好
我是个没有自信，缺少安全感的女人
虽然知道她加入了他在书面子
知道他们有联络
可是，我从没问过他
因为，在一段感情
我觉得猜疑是很累的
我选择闭嘴是因为我想相信他
在这半年内
我们总共吵了两次 只说印象深刻的
第一次，
在他住的家，
我永远永远都会记得的
因为从来没有一个人会站在门口瞪着我
不给我进去，到了晚上还要我把全部讯息，电话来电时间开来给他看
他的不信任，其实当晚让我很心冷
可是因为爱，我选择了解释还有谅解
努力的把不开心吞进肚子
只希望他懂还有不要误解我
第二次
是在手机
为了一部烂电脑
其实过了那件事后
我没有很想保留它
因为，意义不一样了
它让我想起他的责骂
我不是个贪钱的女人 虽然是说气话 可是也很hurt
理解了为什么最近他如何这么的暴躁后
我选择了道歉
结果到了傍晚 事情才解决
那天晚上他说 他不想被什么控制
我说了： 你是自由的 我不会控制，也控制不了
我从来就没有想到这样的去珍惜，还有去在意一个人时 会变成‘控制’
所以，当晚，我学习了退下 少一点在乎 把事情看开
其实，作为一个女人，
我真的没有很多的要求
我没有想要买名牌住好的
我从不去夜店
我没抽烟
我少说粗口（有说的也是比较高级的，下流低级的粗口，说了降低我的人格）
我没有乱发脾气，乱跟男人混，没有当花痴
该说的我都说，该做的我也有做
不该说的我从不乱说
我只希望他会珍惜我，珍惜我们的感情
在这半年内
他也带了很多欢乐給我
当他背着我在后面时
我觉得我就是全世界最幸福的女人
当我在前一晚还没飞回亚庇哭着时
他抱着哄我时 是我听过最动听的声音
当他笨笨的站在门外看着我带着行李出来时
是我最紧张最紧张的时刻
当他从我的碗里偷走我最爱吃的海鲜 还瞪我说: 你敏感，不可以吃时
我比有的吃海鲜更快乐
还有很多很多的情节我没办法一一数出
可是感谢有你，然我重获信心
感谢你爱我
Sorry dear bloggers, i have decided to write this in Mandarin, instead of the normal English-Mandarin version I usually do. I might going to update this in English later when I feel so.
Six Month's Promises (半年之约)
半年过去了
不经不觉， 我们都在一起六个月
在这半年里，虽然我们聚少离多
可是，我还是觉得不一样
他，带了我去一个我不知道的世界
他，给了我不一样的感觉
比起初恋的感觉
多了一份真实，多了一份成熟
比起初恋的感觉
少了一点梦幻，少了一点紧张
却多了一份安定，多了一点平凡
这段感情带了我来到了真实的世界
虽然没有拉曼 没有激情 没有承诺
但是我还是想再次的赌一次
赌我对男人的信任，赌我放进100%的感情
远距离的爱情故事
真的很不简单
要对彼此信任，坚持的走下去
真的不简单
想见面时却被距离隔开了
就是为了一个约定和感觉而走下去
有时我会觉得没有安全感
有时我根本不能够确定他在想什么
不能看到表情，只能靠语气来断定真的很难
我很少会问起他的东西
一方面，我不想让他觉得我在调查他
再来，我觉得没必要
他想告诉你，自己会讲
不想讲的，逼他也没用
所以，还是当个不说话的女人好
我是个没有自信，缺少安全感的女人
虽然知道她加入了他在书面子
知道他们有联络
可是，我从没问过他
因为，在一段感情
我觉得猜疑是很累的
我选择闭嘴是因为我想相信他
在这半年内
我们总共吵了两次 只说印象深刻的
第一次，
在他住的家，
我永远永远都会记得的
因为从来没有一个人会站在门口瞪着我
不给我进去，到了晚上还要我把全部讯息，电话来电时间开来给他看
他的不信任，其实当晚让我很心冷
可是因为爱，我选择了解释还有谅解
努力的把不开心吞进肚子
只希望他懂还有不要误解我
第二次
是在手机
为了一部烂电脑
其实过了那件事后
我没有很想保留它
因为，意义不一样了
它让我想起他的责骂
我不是个贪钱的女人 虽然是说气话 可是也很hurt
理解了为什么最近他如何这么的暴躁后
我选择了道歉
结果到了傍晚 事情才解决
那天晚上他说 他不想被什么控制
我说了： 你是自由的 我不会控制，也控制不了
我从来就没有想到这样的去珍惜，还有去在意一个人时 会变成‘控制’
所以，当晚，我学习了退下 少一点在乎 把事情看开
其实，作为一个女人，
我真的没有很多的要求
我没有想要买名牌住好的
我从不去夜店
我没抽烟
我少说粗口（有说的也是比较高级的，下流低级的粗口，说了降低我的人格）
我没有乱发脾气，乱跟男人混，没有当花痴
该说的我都说，该做的我也有做
不该说的我从不乱说
我只希望他会珍惜我，珍惜我们的感情
在这半年内
他也带了很多欢乐給我
当他背着我在后面时
我觉得我就是全世界最幸福的女人
当我在前一晚还没飞回亚庇哭着时
他抱着哄我时 是我听过最动听的声音
当他笨笨的站在门外看着我带着行李出来时
是我最紧张最紧张的时刻
当他从我的碗里偷走我最爱吃的海鲜 还瞪我说: 你敏感，不可以吃时
我比有的吃海鲜更快乐
还有很多很多的情节我没办法一一数出
可是感谢有你，然我重获信心
感谢你爱我
Sorry dear bloggers, i have decided to write this in Mandarin, instead of the normal English-Mandarin version I usually do. I might going to update this in English later when I feel so.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
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Yesterday it was 19th of March 2011,
it is the day when the moon at its nearest distance with the Earth.
I have yet to see a huge moon last night, but the moon somehow has appeared different than the usual moon i see.
It has been surrounded with a white circle like a huge donut.
Somehow it looks warm and mysterious just like how i wanted it to be.
I couldn't take a picture using my cellphone because I tried but it wasn't clear, so instead, i got this picture similar to the image of the moon i saw last night to share with you guys.
I hope you didn't mind though.
Well back to the moon, well, looking at it, you feel sole and deserted, in a way the moon is alone, always alone but it is doing it best to show you it is special.
See the circle~ it is gorgeous!
昨天是三月十九日
是月球在二十年里最接近地球的一天
看过去的月球就像被一层的白光包围着
看起来很温柔很神秘，就如我想象中一样
电话里的相机没办法吧月球还有白光拍下
害我只好从网上找来一幅差不多一样的
好让我能够跟你们分享我昨晚看到的月亮
看过去的月亮很孤单，独立，自闭
可是却没放弃过的为人们带来惊喜
看下~是不是很美呢!
A Dim of Mysterious Light (梦幻神秘的光)
Yesterday it was 19th of March 2011,
it is the day when the moon at its nearest distance with the Earth.
I have yet to see a huge moon last night, but the moon somehow has appeared different than the usual moon i see.
It has been surrounded with a white circle like a huge donut.
Somehow it looks warm and mysterious just like how i wanted it to be.
I couldn't take a picture using my cellphone because I tried but it wasn't clear, so instead, i got this picture similar to the image of the moon i saw last night to share with you guys.
I hope you didn't mind though.
Well back to the moon, well, looking at it, you feel sole and deserted, in a way the moon is alone, always alone but it is doing it best to show you it is special.
See the circle~ it is gorgeous!
昨天是三月十九日
是月球在二十年里最接近地球的一天
看过去的月球就像被一层的白光包围着
看起来很温柔很神秘，就如我想象中一样
电话里的相机没办法吧月球还有白光拍下
害我只好从网上找来一幅差不多一样的
好让我能够跟你们分享我昨晚看到的月亮
看过去的月亮很孤单，独立，自闭
可是却没放弃过的为人们带来惊喜
看下~是不是很美呢!
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