sometimes when i thought of something to say, there isn't anyone to share
though of course we have friends around, but is not like we can share everything with friends, can we? -sigh-
hence, i opened this blog page just to share and whenever i have something to say, i'll just post it here
Who knows people who knows me is going to read this and get to know more about me
I'm not a person who talks a lot about myself I tend to keep them with myself
Is that something i'm used to? I don't know
In the age of 14, there is always me at home with no one,
my sister went to study oversea, and my parents are just doing their own things
At the age of 15, i moved a lot,
It has been only me all the while
no one to share and no one is willing to share a shoulder for me to lend on
At the age of 20, I even fell into a great sickness.
Sometimes, it makes it sounds ridiculous like this is all a great joke from God
But i never gave up of myself,
I have to complete my degree no matter what or how it is going to be
I will stand tall in front of the crowd and tell them, i can do better than a lot people
Last year in September, i met a guy.
He isn't my first love, but he is a man that i'm willing to bet everything i have just to start a new life with him.
I bet on everything i have, and i might not win in this game,
yet, nothing is gonna lose because even if so, i will not regret for it.
If i win,
i got myself a family,
children of us, a home
If i lose,
i lose everything and it's okay because i am going to leave quietly
and i won't believe in love anymore.
Even so, until this second, i have never regret that I've met you because it is the best part of my life
and you're the one who change that.
That now, i have you.
新的微博，新的开始
有时想想要说的，却没人可分享，
没错，的确可以跟朋友分享啊， 但是又不是每样东西都可以跟朋友分享的
咳
还是开个微薄，要说的就打进来吧
有可能哪天给认识的人看到，也能多多了解我啊
我是一个不太会表达自己的人，很常把心事藏在心里
是习惯吗？可能吧
从十四岁开始，家里就剩下我一个而已
姐姐去了留学，父母亲不争气
十五岁时不停的搬家
我都是一个人的
没有人去分享家里的烦恼，没有能依赖的背
到了二十岁那年 还生了场大病
有时想，老天爷真的跟我开了一场很大的玩笑
我从没有放弃过自己
我要努力去把大学念好
我要站出社会告诉他们我是行的
在上一年的九月，我遇到了他
他不是我的初恋
可是却是我最想用自己的所有赌一赌的人
我赌了全部
就在赌自己的命一样
要不就切切底底的输光光
不然就切切底底的赢一盘
败了
我再不相信爱
赢了
我愿意把自己切低献上
为家里，孩子，未来努力
你背叛了
我们从此玩完
就是那么的简单
我不会再像上一段一样拖泥带水
我要干净零落，决定果断
若输了，我输掉了自己
也不要紧
因为我从不后悔跟你开始过
若赢了，我还是输掉了自己
但也不要紧
因为我有了你
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